The Miserable Habit of Being Miserable by Default
An unfortunate side effect of our consciousness residing in our brains is that everything we experience in our lives involves us somehow. By default, we put ourselves in the centre of the Universe and as this is classed as the most vain & self absorbed prt entertain time in history, we pretty much are more important thougthougo ki jiii hu hyhu j The car in traffic today cut you off. The cable news show you saw last night pissed you off. Your company’s massive growth this year gave you more money.
As a result, we tend to have an inherent bias towards assuming that pretty much everything that happens to us is actually about us.
But here’s a newsflash: Just because you experience something, just because something causes you to feel a certain way, just because you care about something, doesn’t mean it’s about you.
This is hard to remember. And not just because we’re so embedded in our brains and our own bodies. But because making everything about us, in certain ways, feels good for short periods of time.
It feels good to think that everything that’s good that happens in your life happens to you because you’re this good, amazing person.
But the price you pay for making those good experiences about you is that you must also make the bad experiences about you — you must interpret all of the bad things in your life to be about you as well.
And as a result, you place yourself onto a self-esteem roller coaster, where your self-worth bobs up and down, experiencing dizzying highs and crashing lows with the merciless tides of whatever bullshit happens to be going on at the time.
When things are good, you are the gods’ gift to the earth, who deserves to be recognized and applauded at every turn. When things are bad, you are the self-righteous victim, who has been wronged and deserves better.
What is constant is this sense of deserving. And it’s this constant sense of deserving that turns you into an emotional vampire, an anti-social black hole that only consumes the energy and love of those around you without ever offering anything in return.
OK, maybe that was a bit dramatic. But you get the point.
When people criticize you or reject you, it likely has way more to do with them — their values, their priorities, their life situation — than it does with you. I hate to break it to you, but other people simply don’t think about you that much (after all, they’re too busy trying to believe everything is about them).
When something you do fails, it doesn’t mean you are a failure as a person, it simply means you are a person who happens to fail sometimes.
When something tragic happens and you become horribly hurt, as much as your pain has you absolutely convinced that this must be about you, remember that hardship is part of choosing to live, that the tragedy of death is what gives meaning to life, and that pain has no prejudice — it afflicts us all. When we struggle with life, it is through these struggles that we find strength. That we find wisdom.
Deserving or not deserving isn’t part of the equation.